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Then I Was Happy

He told me to wear sexy shorts to show my legs.
Then he had his way with me and left me alone.
Then I moved in with a family who believed women must dress modestly.
So I wore those skirts until the family found another sin to correct.

My doctor told me to exercise to lose those unwanted pounds.
So I ran and ran on that treadmill till I the sweat came and I couldn't breathe.
My doctor looked me up and down.
He told me I had anorexia and looked like bony death.

I got angry at the world
until the church told me to forgive.
Then I was happy
and going to hell.

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